Rebalance*

It’s been longer then I would like since my last post. I started a new job and with all the changes to my routines, schedule, the consumption of new knowledge this blog fell off my plate. 

Lots of things that kept me healthy, happy and thriving fell from my plate. I’m still astounded at how quickly one change threw my whole life off balance.

I stopped doing yoga regularly- until my back made it clear that was not in my best interest. I stopped journaling regularly – until I realized I was verbally processing everything with my generous new colleague and she had not signed up for that job. I even stopped cooking for myself – until I got really tired of peanut butter and jelly sandwich, which to be  honest I didn’t think was possible. 

I went into this change excited and a bit hubristically thinking that I had my shit figured out. I would totally continue to take care of myself. I had just learned the lesson of prioritizing self-care in quarantine! 

Like with all hubris, I was soon reminded that I’m not infallible. I was also handed the not so gentle reminder that my healthy and well being should always remain top priority. Having a tweaked back and a bucket full of muddled emotions wasn’t helping me be a good friend, employee, coworker or person.Eating food that lacked joy (and vegetables) wasn’t helping me be a good friend, employee, coworker or person. Numbing out with hours of vampire shows wasn’t helping me be my best self. 

I share this with you not as an excuse for weeks of silence but as a reminder to you, and also myself, that change is the support of stability. How can I believe that change supports stability as I share how off balance I’ve been? I can say this because the quarantine lesson wasn’t These things are your self-care. The lesson is Self-care is the priority, it is the vehicle stability drives.

More change will come, it’s an inevitable truth. I’ve learned to lovingly embrace change after years of trying to run from it.  With the next change, whatever it’s, another stay at home order, election chaos, a financial windfall or perhaps falling in love I hope to remember that my health is the most important factor in living in my best and highest good.

With Love,

Erin

*Original Post Date August 28th, 2020