Sun’s Day - Sunday
The Sun is joy, brilliance, self and also physical health. I have a confession to make, mostly to myself but also to all of you. I often try to understand my way out of my ‘messier’ feelings. I think, if I can gather all the intel, process all the data and clearly understand the issue, then the way I feel will lessen. I’d hoped that after a week of analyzing the situation, and my feelings about it I would reach Sunday and be filled with joy and light. I’d be ready to shine anew. Instead I cried… a lot. And that’s OKAY! (I have to keep telling myself this, and decouple the shame I associate with being sad.)
This does not devalue the work I did this week. I uncovered, processed and addressed my feelings. I feel more connected to myself and spiritually full. But just like understanding where a rainstorm comes from does not prevent the rain, understanding why it sucks doesn't take away the suck. Part of the reason I shame myself for my feelings is out of fear, I fear I will be stuck being sad forever, this is where the Sun chimed in. The Sun is always shining, even behind those rain clouds the Sun shines effervescently. I don't have to see the sun or even feel it to know that it is there. This is remarkably cliche, I know, but it helped. So as I move forward I’ll be the rainstorm, releasing what needs to be released so that when it's time the sun can shine again.
If you want Sun vibes in your life, play like a child, eat citrus, laugh loudly, add cinnamon to your coffee and blind people with your brilliance.